You win some you lose some

Its awfully late after our event today, but I am awake and sipping on a "pick-me-up" glass of wine after an epsom salt bath and some regrouping.

A very perk Tillie despite the heat

Tillie and i had our second recognized event at novice today at Loch Moy. I have kept a bit quiet about it blogging, for fear you all will think I really nuts, but leading into this event this whole week, my head space just hasnt been there. I contemplated selling my entry, I cried over my lack of braiding skills and even was convinced my horse was lame this am before the event. All of which I had awesome friends holding my hand saying "youll be ok."

But at the end of the day while I sit here reflecting, I know I have had this bad feeling all week i just couldnt figure out why or what for.

Looking for reasons to not compete.....maybe a sign?!

I am sure by now you all can tell the lead in here...our event did not end well. Ok, not well in terms of I fell off and got eliminated, but I do still feel really positive about it and not super backed off despite this. Apparently this venue is not the best luck for us completing events...if you remember we got eliminated last year here in dressage.

Ill make sure to fill everyone in on more details later, but as of now Tillie and i are ok. Fingers crossed tomorrow is the same, but it was just a bad read on a fence and i am confident it is something that was a green horse, new question moment and we will be ok. Even with hitting the fence quite hard with her hind legs, Tillie did everything she could to remedy the situation and took great care of me. It makes me want to hug her tight and I couldnt be more grateful for how she handled the bad red....sure we fell (yes both of us), but she stayed calm, she stayed out of my way and landed and stopped right there with me.

holy bum high here!!! 

So I guess you win some and lose some and today we had a learning moment. Sure it wasnt super fun, but leading up to this point it was one of our best events to date. Pending how Tillie feels, we will press on and try our best to shake it off. Ill do whatever she tells me, but it really felt like a bit of a fluke and prelim discussions with my trainers also are in agreeance so I am hopefully today was just a minor set back we will come out the other side stronger and wiser.

Regardless, I just want to be the best horse person and go by my horse.

More details to follow soon I promise!