Either way, it sucks. And to top it off, I tend to feed off it...so once I am feeling weak, my overly sensitive side kicks in and FOMO starts to happen, self doubt etc.
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| Tillie says cheer up! |
Right now the inspiration just isnt coming. Yet, I couldnt be more proud of Tillie lately and I am so excited for my barn mates on their first outing being such a huge success!! (You can read Emma's take on it here).
Not sure whats going on....if this does all boil down to not being able to teach so I am stressing about income (my teaching pays for my horse hobby only - its how I can afford it outside of my day job). Its funny how happiness and security can be so fickle...when just last weekend I was riding high! Ah such is life I guess.
Anyway...lets here what motivates you when you get down?
I hope you start to feel better soon. Mother nature need to get her s*** together. Hopefully we'll start getting some good weather.
ReplyDeleteWe all have rough patches, but what helps me is to embrace my inner child. Go for a bareback gallop (me) or take some extra time to make your horse pretty (if galloping bareback seems insane). Just something that makes you happy and you can forget about all the struggles. I call them my mental health days.
ReplyDeleteI totally understand that waffling confidence thing. I always revert to the as-if principle...
ReplyDeleteI'm feeling the same way right now. Really not bad rides over the weekend, but still feeling a heavy case of the blehs.
ReplyDeleteI think anticipation is maybe the most volatile emotion - it can go from intense excitement to dread in the drop of a hat. Fear of the unknown is buried in there too. But you guys are COOKIN right now. Trust your training. Trust your preparation. And watch videos from your xc school and Dom clinic and get PUMPED!!
ReplyDeleteINspiration Fitness blrs on TUmblr usually help me. I hope you are able to teach soon :(
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