|Success doenst always mean ribbons, but placing well is certainly a benefit|
|Like knowing when to ask your trainer to hop on your horse for more insight|
I have been living by the motto #progressnotperfection with that whole philosophy in mind. Sometimes, progress means having to take a step back or feeling a bit awful before the success or reaping the benefits. Lately, stepping up to Training level I have felt a bit self conscious and a plethora of other negative emotions along with it forcing me to question maybe I should not push to be doing Training level yet. I could reason why or why not all day long, but this article sums up much more concisely what i am trying to say in this post.
I am not perfect. Tillie and I definitely bring out many bad traits in one another sometimes so much so that I have questioned if we are the right fit for one another. I am sure many other fellow equestrians have also been there too. It comes with the territory when riding a living, breathing, evolving animal.
|Oh the angst!|
|Like freaking out about her yawning at first...but now i know when she does it, what prompts it and when its abnormal.|
I can admit that from others looking in, not knowing our situation, its easy to think wow that was a fast move up. I am stating this because I've gotten those remarks...and I would be lying if I said they didn't bother me.
|Our first event of the season at Beginner Novice|
I have a pretty nasty habit of letting what others resonate and haunt me...some of it is assumed (so may be unfounded) some of it is definitely based on remarks that are pretty blantant. I know I can be sensitive when it comes to Tillie and what I am doing for soooo many reasons, but this, as many of you will understand, is my passion. So yea, I get a bit worked up about it.
|I even take PTO and havent taken a vaca with own hubby to do things like go to K3DE|
|Our first novice this season...and I might have bragged a little|
This isnt an us against them post: but it is a believe in yourself, cheesy, over-the-top, motivational one hopefully. We ALL have our own stuff to overcome. If your lucky you have a great support system to help you weed through the thick of it. If you arent, know you arent alone and someday you will find the right people to be your support.
|Like finding the Dom Schramm clinic which has led to him becoming my trainer and a huge catalyst for us this season.|
I currently am competing at the highest level I ever thought I would get to. Its a big deal to me. Only recently did I realize I have a horse that is capable of taking us further. No matter what, I know this because I have the trainers and coaching taking us through the growing pains Ive blogged about to get to the next level. I hope everyone out there reading...not that there are many of you...finds a way to push past the boundaries and just keep trying.
|Like setting jumps like this!! I dont think Id ever set an oxer this high or wide for myself without my coach....and doing it never felt too much with their guidance but alone maybe...|
|Competing in our first Training event|
Like I said, our Training debut and second attempt may not be a "win" on paper, but the very phase I was most concerned about with the move up (and is the most dangerous) has been the most petrifying, exhilarating and fun phase (in that exact order)...and dare I say it, has felt effortless. Tillie has been bold, confident and made my job easy which makes this whole experience way more fun.
So getting off my pedestal now, this is meant for anyone out there doubting themselves. Know your horse, know yourself. Take the leap but only enough that it scares you just enough to be outside your comfort zone but doesn't shake your confidence. Sure we may not snag the ribbon, the approval of others or whatever your own stuff is...but be confident enough in your partnership with your horse to know when the improvements happen even when no one else notices.
Dont ever stop pushing. Dont stop dreaming. It may not turn out or look like the picture you originally thought of, but anyone that hinders that progress or dream is someone that will only hinder you. It may take longer than you wanted, a different horse, a different coach or what ever...but dont ever stop believing. Its ok to be passionate. Its ok sometimes to brag and celebrate the win...and there always is one somewhere in the mess that is horse ownership.